TheSpid

It really doesn't matter how hard you try, there is always going to be someone who drags you down, who finds that one minute mistake or ambiguity in what you say or do and twist it and turn it into something that is so completely NOT what you intended or meant. Being blamed for the 0.1% of yourself that isn't really there and people taking it to be the 85% of your whole is just unreasonable. Even those who portend to be looking for the beautiful or raging against injustice over look what is beneath their noses or misconstrue that one minute slip. Because of course my whole life, my ethos, my being is all about those slips! In their eyes. And

I think, from now on, I will bury my head in the sand and pretend that the world is rosy and wonderful and never say a word against it - I can't change it and I can't change anyone or help them either. They will just have to manage without me and grow up and move away and do what they want without either my blessing or my disapproval as nothing or say I do is right. I am the enemy. It's very sad but very true. I will stand back and just let it happen. That's what they want - so be it. They can be selfish and immature but want it all their way. They can take it all but I will neither help nor hinder. They have to do it themselves as they have

Don't Peel Back the Skin If you peel back my skin You will not find Bone and muscle, Blood and veins. You will not find Tendon and sinew, Nerves or organs. You will not find Personality or soul, Intellect or mind, But a strongly coiled spring Wound tight with crude, unstable tension And volatile, capricious emotion. And a single straining string Running oh-so taut Through my hollow core, A nonchalant place holder. A string frayed and unravelling, One weak, meagre strand left intact Stopping my explosion. Earlier splintered strands dangle impotently Tickling my conscience, Making me wriggle and strain dangerously. S